I haven't been feeling well. I haven't mentioned it because I didn't want to be dramatic. I also didn't want to minimize it. Finally, I called and made an appointment with a doctor.
I am now somewhere between denial and diagnosis.
There are other days, like today, when they tell me I make life rotten because I won't allow them to have a dog and sneak off with a pair of children's scissors and shape their hair into an 80s mullet, but I digress...
I have my suspicions as to what I'm dealing with (and no, this isn't something we will be bringing home in a onesie in nine months...), but until I know for sure, I'm not going to talk about specifics here.
Just know, that if my suspicions are correct, this isn't something I can take an antibiotic for and get over. It's also not something horrendously scary, like cancer.
{Did I mention I didn't want to be dramatic? It's weird how, while trying to be vague, I end up sounding mysterious.}
Anyway, this is all just to say that I'm sorry for the lack of new posts. I have not been feeling well for several weeks now, and to top it off, my laptop is not currently operational. I keep trying to get my bearings, but things feel a bit upside-down.
Did I mention that I'm blessed? I have a couple of really great parents who have been compassionate and concerned and willing to listen. I have a long suffering husband who hasn't said a word when he came home to me on the couch and dishes in the sink. I have caring friends. And I have the most amazing, compassionate LOVES for daughters. The other day, if you were a fly on the wall in our home, this is the conversation you would've heard:
Me: "I'm sorry I don't feel well. I'm sorry I'm cranky with you."
Natalie (3.5): "I'm sorry. You're perfect. You're a perfect mom to us. We love you!"
Hannah (6): "Yes. You make life so much easier. It wouldn't be the same without you."
There are other days, like today, when they tell me I make life rotten because I won't allow them to have a dog and sneak off with a pair of children's scissors and shape their hair into an 80s mullet, but I digress...
Bear with me. And if you have any non-annoying words of cheer, those are welcome too.
Until next time, I hope you are enjoying summer and taking time for writing and creativity.
Non-annoying words of cheer?? HA! I am not entirely sure what that means. But know I will be thinking of you and I'm sorry you have to go through this. And I HAVE missed your posts. Take care of yourself. We will still be waiting here when you come back.
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ReplyDeleteLove you Jenn!
ReplyDeleteI could not agree more with you about your blessings through family, but that also makes me think that whatever the case is, there is a blessing through it. Hope you find out soon what is happening and find Godly ways to cope. Blessing on your family. God loves you.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that life is hard right now, Jenn. I'm also sorry because I'm afraid I had something to do with the dog part. I promise to never take Hannah to the animal shelter again! :)
ReplyDeleteI wish for you an ALIVE life and more blessing from family and friends than you can hold. Mostly I wish God's peace to be a long, warm, cozy blanket wrapping you from head to around your toes, no matter what. I love you!
ReplyDeleteLifting you and your situation UP, Jenn! Know that you ARE a blessing to your family and to your friends and readers. (((hugs))) to you.
ReplyDeleteIt's important to share all of it, the fantastic and amazing and the pits and worries. You have an amazing support system and I'll pray for this new part of your life. God is in it all- of that I have no doubt. Hugs and prayers...
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking about you Jenn! and missing your posts. Thanks for sharing and good for you for taking an intermission when you need it. If there's anything I can do please let me know. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your words.
ReplyDeleteYour blog is peaceful, your girls are adorable & I hope you are well...
ReplyDeleteI hope you are doing well, better, not too bad and your spirits are keeping up as you take care of yourself.
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