I see his coffee cup, left empty by the sink, and I long for a time when we will have more hours together; when we won't live so separate.
And I wonder if this is how God feels about us -- about me. That this is not how it was designed; that we were meant to be together.
Separation is not in the blueprints for sacred life.
Death, disillusionment, divorce: all impostors. None created by the One who only desires the very best for us.
The sacred moments of true togetherness -- when we are not only together in physical proximity, but also in spirit, offers glimpses of Heaven, His design. No competition, no conniving, no critical words slipping out unfiltered.
This is the heart of God: community, togetherness, grace. This is what we were made for.
So until I see him again, this man I vowed to walk through life with, I wash the cup and launder his clothes, and think about how to better show how I feel -- this love. And until I see Him, this God I vowed to serve, I wash out my heart and launder my judgment, and think about how to better show how He feels -- this perfect love.
Very insightful. Plenty for me to think about there. Thank you! ~Wendy
ReplyDeleteI like the word pictures and connection. Thanks
ReplyDeleteBeautiful. I can so relate to the odd feeling of loneliness within a marriage we all must at sometime face. I hope you get some amazing time together soon x
ReplyDeleteYour writing and your spirit are a gift Jennifer, you have grace and humility and selflessness - thank you so much for sharing your heart with us. You have been so blessed in so many ways. Love to you - Jenna
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