Not Good Enough vs Just Right
As hard as I try to convince myself otherwise, there are going to be some days in which I can't succeed like I want to; success won't look like I envision. I won't be able to make my life look like what I think it should. It will be exhaustion and low-grade fever and pain that's hard to bear.
It will be a cottage full of Mama Bear and Baby Bears in pajamas at nearly 3 p.m.
That's chronic pain for you. That's chronic illness.
It will also be a chance to slow down that we wouldn't otherwise take; a chance to wear fuzzy pink slippers and bathrobes and pile into a big bed that's just the right size and read a big pile of storybooks.
It will be time to learn some Spanish. Time to discuss manners, sibling relationships, trying new foods, the science in the natural world.
It will be time for cuddling close -- for a 4 year-old head on my shoulder, and a 7 year-old hand, tanned brown from summer sun, resting on me.
It will be time slowed down.
And this evening when Papa Bear comes home from work, the house may not be clean, the table may have gone unused for schooling, but we will be calm and loving, and we will have learned and grown today, and we will be a little bit closer for this time we told to slow down and the hours we cuddled close and knit our hearts together.
Isn't that the success I envision?